Braving the cravings

For some reason I've been wanting to shove everything in my mouth. I'm having less control of myself than usual.

When I'm home it's not such a big deal because there aren't too many bad things to eat, but going out is dangerous. It's amazing how many of our social gatherings are centered around food. I've been more or less isolating myself because of this, also friends who are not on a serious diet don't quite understand the struggle. The idea of "just don't eat it" seems reasonable unless you are in one of those cravings. I spent 2 or 3 days not very hungry and doing well, but the past two days have been pure torture. Yesterday I decided to make myself some cucumber chips by baking them in the oven to make this craving not damage my diet too much. The hours it took to make them(and the exercise) cooled my appetite for a bit so I decided to eat them the next day(today) but a mishap in the kitchen (i set them on fire) meant I only got a taste.
I also was at a coffee shop and really started craving hot coco with whipped cream luckily I took a peak at the calorie intake and realized I didn't need to drink away 350 cal... (that's more than most of my meals) so I dogged a bullet. Later in my office I couldn't help but swipe a mini babyruth from Halloween ( candy doesn't go bad right?). I don't even really like these! I put it in my mouth started to chew then realized I didn't want it and spit most of it back out.
I think I'm missing that mindless munching and want to eat until I'm incapacitated. I bought a bag of pre-washed kale so hopefully I can manage to make some kale chips and that will take away this carving.
I also need to make sure I go to the gym tonight after messing up today. I've been watching the drama MR. BRAIN (ミスターブレイン）while exercising but now I'm on the last episode and need to find something else similar to watch (something where each episode stands on its own). Going to try Hero next.